No breakup is easy, especially when you love that person, could see a future with them and have to work with them 5 days a week...
It’s hard, hurts and doesn’t happen overnight, but nobody should expect it to be painless.
Basically, my first experience of trying to get over someone hasn’t been an easy one.
I’m a strong believer in “Everything happens for a reason”, but even I struggled to come to terms with the breakup of this relationship.
I couldn’t understand why and I certainly didn’t want to accept it, even though deep down I knew it was for the best in the long term.
Moments of weakness ended in a chat, a hug, a kiss, and before I knew it I was pretending things could be back to how I wanted them, if only for an hour or so. I was close to the person I love again and at the time that was all that mattered.
However I was only deceiving myself...
The biggest hurdle for me was actually accepting it was over. It’s so easy to lie awake at night thinking "what if", but that doesn’t change anything, or make you feel any better. After I managed this (which wasn’t until a few weeks ago) it made it a whole lot easier to deal with, I started to look forward to my future again instead of constantly reminding myself that a certain person wouldn’t be a part of it.
I can safely say I am getting there, yes it has nearly been 3 months now, but it’s going to take time, I’m going to have ups and downs but that’s the kind of person I am, and I wouldn’t change that for anyone. I deal with things my own way and refuse to listen to people who tell me to start seeing someone else or that I should be over my ex by now.
I don’t regret anything, I had amazing times with my ex and I will always have feelings for him. One of many things I learnt from him about life is not to force anything, what will be will be.
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